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Overthinking. Day 13, 30 day challenge.

 
I can't tell you how many people have told me to stop over thinking things throughout my life, my cousin being the most recent...yes, as of this afternoon.  I have struggled for twelve days with this blog, with 17 more days left after this entry, but part of my struggle has been that one word...over thinking.  Instead of just sitting down and writing whatever the hell comes out of my brain. I have worried about what people might think.  Swearing.  Subject matter (is it important enough) and whatever else might have crossed that path in my mind.
 
That said, I am taking my cousin's advice and no more over thinking.  Whatever comes out of my brain, comes out of my brain.  It's who I am.  For the most part, I am not even close to being controversial, but I can be very very random and for no reason at all.
 
I think part of the over thinking can go back as recent as my blog on Outlander. I was so worried about sounding like an idiot, that I wrote that blog eight times. By the end of the last draft, I still wasn't happy, but honestly I am not even sure why I was worried. It's an Emmy worthy show, with Emmy worth performances and I shared my views on that. One thing I forgot in my task of over thinking...Holy Shit!  The scenery in Scotland is to die for!  I want to go there and just roll down one of those hills, giggling all the way down! I just hope I don't run into any rocks or boulders, that won't just suck...it will hurt.
 
So why did I over think it?  Who knows, it's me. I am five foot five of walking worry.  I need to stop though .  It's time to let go of the "old" and just be who I am.  I mean really, I am a fun person capable of spontaneity, according to my friends, though I do like organization, courtesy of lists I make, because my writers brain sometimes spreads into my life and I end up all over the place.  It's all a part of the fun of being me.
 
"Over thinking causes negative thoughts", isn't that enough to let the bad habit go? I mean really, who wants to live in a cloud of negativity?  How non-productive is that?  Very, because then we just sit around worrying about what's next, instead of experiencing each moment as it comes along.  Life is a journey.  There are ups, downs, plateaus and steep drops, but as long as the ups outnumber all that follow it, you can be sure all is well.  Is it really that hard to think this way. No. 
 
It is time I relinquish control and just see where the wind takes me.  To go with the flow. I mean there is still a lot of life to live and I don't want to be left on the sidelines thinking about my life and where it is going, when I could be living it.
 
Until tomorrow...
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