Capricorn Tales

Today's meditation is about beating insomnia and is meant for bedtime, so I thought I might take the opportunity to recap the first fifteen days of this challenge.  I'm not going to take us through day by day, instead let's focus on how we feel.  Do you feel like you're making progress? Do you feel different? Has the way you approached each day changed? I can honestly answer yes to all three of those questions.  Though I had a happy childhood and can't complain, there are events during that time that took place that I can't change, but that had molded me into someone I did not want to be anymore, negative and self-loathing.   There have been times that I felt like a feral animal, scared and feeling trapped and then verbally came out lashing.  It has been quite some time since I have been this way, though "ugly" me slips out for an appearance from time to time, but it is fewer and far between.  I had been attempting meditation for some tim...

Anyone who knows me, knows that I can be wound a little tight sometimes.  Although I love the little things in life, it is the daily annoyances (ie. Traffic, rude people, etc.) that can toss me over the edge on some days.  I am not sure what makes each day different from the next, in my mind anyway, but I do know that some days are rougher than others to get through.  As of late, my cousin has inspired me to reach deep within and start weeding out the negativity that has been left behind from all sorts of things in my life, including past relationships, and the deaths of my mom and one of my best friends, who was like a soul sister to me. I am a Capricorn, so I tend to hold on to things.  What can I say, I give a good glare. *Shrugs shoulders*.  However, a good glare, or a left over vibe from some moment gone wrong, is not conducive to my heart health. Yes, the little ticker is running mighty fine, like a well tuned car, but reality i...