Capricorn Tales

  There is a great line in the movie 'Love Actually' that seems to resonate with me today.  I am a severe over thinker at times, and in many cases that can spell trouble.  Not for anyone else, but for me.  I start to lose focus, I start to not concentrate on things that are important to me and worst of all, I put me on the back burner and focus on whatever it is I am over thinking about.   As a woman who is single, hoping for the one is hard.  I am content in my life, but of course you always want to find the one that you can share life with.  I had hoped when I was younger that I would have a husband, a family and a nice house with a fence...it doesn't have to be picket, I've seen too many horror movies, those actually scare me. Ha!  Needless to say, life dealt me a bunch of distant or cheating men, some I could classify as assholes, others as just a moment in time, but all were lessons.  I didn't see that at the time, but they were....

The last few days have been anything, but normal for me.  I have been running in circles trying to make my life happen, without giving any thought to what I was doing to myself.  How would I end up, would I truly be happy, would I even care?  I was doing it, because I thought the end result was what I wanted, but truly, is it?  Yes.  In the long run, yes, but I had to overcome the first obstacle...me. I know the quest seems vague and I am sorry, but it will have to remain that way.  The journey however, not so much.  Have you ever wanted something so much in your life that you could feel it? You could smell it?  You could almost breathe it?  That's how I have been.  I have dreamt it.  I have felt it and I have touched it.  At this point you probably think I am a whackadoodle and off my rocker, but if you know me, you realize that I am not (shoosh my fellow sassypants pals. lol).  As of late, I have tried to live...