Not sure what the title should be.

Brace yourselves, this will probably be a rambling post, but hey, no one is perfect and it is apparently one of the things I do best. 

I think this post will be about resolutions, but I didn't want to put that in the subject line, I thought I would keep you guessing.  So mean right? Or is that clever trickery?  Sometimes I am so wicked awesome (in my own mind). 

So let's get to it.  Resolution number one.  No resolutions.  For me they end up being empty promises that only make me feel guilty at the end of the year.  So for the second year in a row, I am flying by the seat of my pants and coming up with idea's of things I want to, need to and have to get done.

As those of you who read my blog know, I made this oath last year and went on one hell of a year long, transformative, journey.  As I write this today, I think I might have just finished with one of the biggest transformations in my life and I didn't even realize it was happening.  Imagine a butterfly coming out of the cocoon, it struggles and struggles, but as science will tell us, this helps the butterfly become strong and sturdy.  This is how I felt.  For the last few days I have felt off and like I was struggling.  Then today, it was like that brick to the head again.  I saw the cocoon as being control and the butterfly represented freedom.  Once I understood this process, I realized my body, the magical wonder that it is, was changing emotionally (and somewhat physically as I lost 4 pounds*) and this is why I felt off balance.  I was changing for the better.

Okay, so you probably think I will start dancing circles around you, but I will save that for the more mystical people who know what they are doing (not poking fun, I am being honest. It does look interesting though).  Myself, well, I found my inner balance and peace.  I learned that the struggles of last year, were only to make me stronger as life moves forward.  For the first time in all of my birthdays, I worried about turning 43, but it turns out, I am young at heart and that is what is most important.  I also found out a bunch of my cousins 27-33 year old friend's have heard so much about Marie's "older cousin", that some of them, who don't know me already, want to meet me and hang out.  So my cousin put together a girl's night out. How is that for staying young?  Yep, age is a time marker, not your downfall.

Long story short, or longer, depending on your focusing skills, if you make a resolution, don't panic if you don't accomplish it right away. Sometimes the adventure is about the journey and not just the destination.  Allow yourself to break free of the chrysalis, the cocoon, and get out there and enjoy who you are and who you have become.  We all go mental sometimes, the trick is to not stay there. Life is a long road, so don't beat yourself up, instead, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and pat yourself on the back for traveling the road you have chosen. 

There are many roads that will have awesome journey's, so don't limit yourself to just one.  Who knows, you might even meet a travel companion on your way. Heck, I might even meet a travel companion for my journey through the rest of my life.  Who knows, but whatever you do, make 2016 one to remember.

Until the next time, Stop at the signs, but don't hang out there.

*I haven't changed a thing. I think I just started to appreciate myself.  (results not typical? Is that a fair disclaimer?  even I don't know what I did. lol).