Capricorn Tales

I have blogged off and on about a personal journey I have been on for about a year or so.  It's nothing earth shattering for anyone but me.  I hate to say it, but I kind of became a cliché.  Indeed, I had become that person who needed to find themselves.  One of my favorite quotes along the way came from Tolkien, "Not all those who wander are lost".  It kind of contradicts my previous statement, well not kind of, it does, because I talk about finding myself, but truly, I knew where I was all the time.  Are you confused yet? Think of it as standing outside of your body inside a hall of mirrors.  Like a carnival there are images of you everywhere, but only one of those images are you.  So you go about seeking the solid figure and along the way you hit dead ends, walls, other mirrors with images of yourself and so on, until you finally stop, breathe and realize if you look at the mirror in front of you, there you are.  You stop trying so hard...

Brace yourselves, this will probably be a rambling post, but hey, no one is perfect and it is apparently one of the things I do best.  I think this post will be about resolutions, but I didn't want to put that in the subject line, I thought I would keep you guessing.  So mean right? Or is that clever trickery?  Sometimes I am so wicked awesome (in my own mind).  So let's get to it.  Resolution number one.  No resolutions.  For me they end up being empty promises that only make me feel guilty at the end of the year.  So for the second year in a row, I am flying by the seat of my pants and coming up with idea's of things I want to, need to and have to get done. As those of you who read my blog know, I made this oath last year and went on one hell of a year long, transformative, journey.  As I write this today, I think I might have just finished with one of the biggest transformations in my life and I didn't even realize...

Day 12...it's hard to believe how fast this month and year are flying by and yet, January 2015 seems like a world away.  Funny how that works isn't it?  So what am I thankful for today?  Well, at the risk of beating a dead horse from other blogs, I am grateful for the journey I have been on for the last 8-10 months. It started on my birthday in January when I decided that this year was going to be my break out year. The year I broke out of my chrysalis and began to soar.  I am a late bloomer, or perhaps I am blooming when I was meant to.  My mind has been my biggest obstacle and situations that presented themselves to me when I was young, left me with a dinged self-esteem, but eight months ago to this very day, on March 12, I vowed that I was going to start on the right path and stick to it and as challenging as it has been, I have. I took my writing more seriously and I became much less afraid of living my life and learned to believe that I deserve ...

Eight months ago I began a personal journey that has lead my life through a series of ups and down, corkscrews, loops and straightaways and seemingly at full speed.  When it first started I was reluctant, but it felt like something I needed to do and I, for some reason, didn't want to pull me off of the ride.  It is almost as if I was meant to walk this path.  There have been good and bad times. There have been fun and sad times, but as I make my way down this road, I find that I am becoming more and more appreciative of everything around me, including myself. I also find that in every situation good or bad, comes a chance to grow. So today I am thankful for the guidance I have received along this journey, as well as the trust and faith I have learned to have in people.   I am in the finale in this phase of my journey and it is preparing me for a new course, a course that I have worked hard for, that I have learned to have faith in and that I have learn...