Capricorn Tales

For twenty days I have been blogging my interpretation of each daily meditation, as well as how it affects me or pertains to my life, but today I am going to paste in the link for the meditation, because I think it is important that you follow this word for word.   Self-confidence comes easier to some than others.  It does not come easily to me, but as I have mentioned in the past, sometimes life events might condition how we think about ourselves, even when we have family or good friends that do their best to give you confidence.  Mean words hurt, mean words from peers that you want to like you, can hurt even more. So how does one move past this?  Hear only the positive words, feel only the positive vibes. Mean words hurt yes, but people spewing nastiness, are people that do not positively serve your life and so you must let them go.   I am beginning to believe that everything happens in divine right time.   That being said, I can honestl...

The simplest question often has the toughest answer.  Twenty years ago I was a size 5.  Twenty years later, I am lucky to even stand in the same room as a size five.  Thirteen sizes later, I am actually down twenty-five pounds from a size 20, to an 18, having ballooned to 250 pounds.  So what brings me to write this? A movie sissy put on about a writer who is overweight and trying to find her way out of her rut is really opening my eyes.  Of course an hour and a half, which translates into several months in the movie, is a lot different than facing this from the starting line. Fortunately I am already into this race. What is hard is having people tell you constantly that you're worth it, but being so lost in yourself doubt that you have trouble believing it. How does one go through life with such a fabulous support system and still feel horrible?  Simple, I am standing in my own way. I have many reasons to lose weight. Image. Self-esteem...all fair...