Day 29 of the 30 day meditation. Love meditation.

Twenty-nine days down and one more to go. I am enjoying meditating everyday and find that sometimes I just do it for a few minutes when I need that energy pick me up, or to release those tense moments.

When I first saw the meditation for today, naturally I became excited. Will this help me find Mr. Right? Will this lead me to find the one? Well, I completely misinterpreted this meditation and was pleasantly surprised when it began. This meditation isn't about finding anyone other than yourself. "To love oneself is the beginning of a life long romance." -Oscar Wilde. How true are those words? When you love yourself, you open yourself to love others, whether it be family, friend's or a significant other and this is partly because you are creating a positive energy, or vibe.

This meditation is also about forgiveness of those who have hurt you, and releasing that pain, as well as an exercise in self-love. Love is pure. When we are born, we are born with the capacity to love all with no judgments. It is circumstances that end up shaping us and in some cases, causing a fear of love, because you don't want to be hurt anymore. I get it, we've all been there. These feelings aren't exclusive to one person, and I don't want you to miss a good part of your life, shutting someone, maybe 'the one' out, because you might have felt alone and thought no one understood. It is also a way to push family or friend's away and no one wants to do that. So open your heart when doing this meditation.

This exercise isn't just for people that need to learn self-love. It is also a good meditation for those who have love for themselves. It is about learning to go in love. To shower your life with love, not just yourself or someone you love.

Before we start, remember what I have said in the past, 'you are enough'. Now let's begin. Breathe in to the count of five, exhale your worries to the count of eight. Breathe in clarity. Breathe out stress. Breathe in love. Breathe out self-loathing and self-doubt. Now, while breathing naturally, sit and say to yourself 10 times, out loud or in your head, "love is pure", not loveispure, but love. is. pure. This isn't about how fast you can say this ten times, it is about hearing and understanding each word. Take a moment of silence to clear your mind and when you are ready, picture yourself, and repeat for a minute or two, 'I love you". Feel yourself saying this to yourself, as you feel your spirit light up and begin to glow. When you have finished, take a moment of silence to once again clear your mind. Now, picture someone you feel you need to forgive. Repeat ten times, slowly, "I forgive you, because I need to love myself and I deserve to be happy." Once again, take a moment of silence and one last time, with a clear mind, repeat to yourself, with you in mind, "I love you". One last time, take a moment to feel the peace you are achieving, as you begin to appreciate yourself.

Until tomorrow...Feel the peace and love inside of you pulsating out to the people around you.

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