Capricorn Tales

Are you single and fretting over Valentine's? Maybe you're becoming increasingly depressed, or blue, because you keep seeing those jewelry commercials on television, or those candy commercials?  Or your friend's or coworkers keep telling you their plans, or hopes of a potential special moment? Well, I am here to virtually hug you and to tell you, it will be okay.  First, don't begrudge your friend's or coworkers their happiness.  Smile sincerely and be happy for them.  Being happy for them, will make you feel better and will increase your outer (yet invisible) glow.  Hey, you might glow so brightly, you could end up with a Valentine's date if you go to Happy Hour on a Friday night.  Now, how do you get over yourself and move beyond the stigma, that is kind of self-imposed, of being single on Valentine's day?  Take your power back and put you first.  There are a million and ten places open on Valentine's day.  Severa...

I have blogged off and on about a personal journey I have been on for about a year or so.  It's nothing earth shattering for anyone but me.  I hate to say it, but I kind of became a cliché.  Indeed, I had become that person who needed to find themselves.  One of my favorite quotes along the way came from Tolkien, "Not all those who wander are lost".  It kind of contradicts my previous statement, well not kind of, it does, because I talk about finding myself, but truly, I knew where I was all the time.  Are you confused yet? Think of it as standing outside of your body inside a hall of mirrors.  Like a carnival there are images of you everywhere, but only one of those images are you.  So you go about seeking the solid figure and along the way you hit dead ends, walls, other mirrors with images of yourself and so on, until you finally stop, breathe and realize if you look at the mirror in front of you, there you are.  You stop trying so hard...

I often worry that when I am blogging, people will think me a narcissist, or someone with a big ego, but I can promise you this is not the case and I can also promise you that I am done worrying about such worries.  What, you ask?  With the advancement of social media, I find that I am not the only person to share on Facebook, or Twitter (where I am actually more like myself, then on FB where all of my family and friend's are. lol). I began blogging off and on several years ago in an attempt to share more. My friend's tell me I am funny and outgoing and a pleasure to be around, but when it comes to my feelings, I could (and sometimes still can) be quite shut off from the outside world.  Part of the journey I shared in many blog posts last year, was about learning to come out of my shell.  I know it's silly, but learning to be confident, was definitely one of the more interesting aspects of my journey. All that said, people are goin...

The other day I shared a meditation on how to balance your energy with the Full (or New) Moon's energy. I wrote instructions on how I did it, but I forgot one key ingredient, Make-it-your-own.  That's right.  My meditations aren't a how-to-guide, they are a template so that you can tailor the meditations to what best suits your needs. So to show how my cousin and I share brain, I told Marie I was going to blog about the meditation I shared with her, and a few minutes, before I posted it, she texted me and asked me if she could video blog the meditation.  I had already sent her notes on how I do it a month earlier, since she and I have trouble with balancing the energies of the full moon and the new moon.  I told her that a video blog would be great and that I thought it was funny that she mentioned it, since I had told her I was going to blog about it several days earlier while I was still in Tucson.  We hadn't talked about thi...

Are you one of those people who are a little unbalanced emotionally, or mentally, during a full moon?  Perhaps you go a little crazy, or maybe you turn into a hairless werewolf? Well, I may have the solution you are looking for.  I can't promise it will work miracles, but there is a possibility it might be able to help bring you back to a desirable level of sanity. Some people don't give the moon enough credit. Sure a full moon lights up the earth a bit more than usual, and sure it might make some canines bay at the moon, but it can also mess with your personal being. Think about it, moon cycles play with the ocean tide right?  Well, seeing how the body is made up of a large percentage of water, isn't it plausible that the moon is also playing with the human body? Throwing it off balance and making you feel not so emotionally fresh? I am not a scientist. I am not a trained person when it comes to meditations, so I am putting that out there now. ...

Brace yourselves, this will probably be a rambling post, but hey, no one is perfect and it is apparently one of the things I do best.  I think this post will be about resolutions, but I didn't want to put that in the subject line, I thought I would keep you guessing.  So mean right? Or is that clever trickery?  Sometimes I am so wicked awesome (in my own mind).  So let's get to it.  Resolution number one.  No resolutions.  For me they end up being empty promises that only make me feel guilty at the end of the year.  So for the second year in a row, I am flying by the seat of my pants and coming up with idea's of things I want to, need to and have to get done. As those of you who read my blog know, I made this oath last year and went on one hell of a year long, transformative, journey.  As I write this today, I think I might have just finished with one of the biggest transformations in my life and I didn't even realize...

This is my fifth draft on this subject and I find that the more I rewrite this, the less redundant I seem to become.  I'm also a little less cynical, since my first draft. I am trying to take the more positive approach to life, what can I say? New Year's Resolution? Probably, but that's a topic for another day. So, let's get to the nitty gritty of the subject line.  Do you ever feel like you are ignored or 'not worthy' when on Twitter?  Maybe even Facebook?  I have a friend that does when it comes to Twitter.  Yeah, okay, it's me, but Facebook isn't my problem, in fact, I know personally 99% of my Facebook Friend's, because I don't just friend anyone, which is also why I don't look like I have many friend's on there. *shrugs*  Besides, that's what Twitter is for... From time to time I like to comment or retweet things I see.  I don't expect a response or a like, but when I don't get one, I think 'Oh Crap, did I ...

  Though I probably should have written this blog post yesterday, I decided to be a lazy bum all day, only leaving my house to go have dinner with my sister.  I know, I know, you probably think I was nursing a hangover, but on the contrary the only hangover I was nursing, was the one caused by 2015.  No, I am not angry at 2015.  I did not carry over the animosity of 2014 starting off so great and ending with a life changing event that left a piece of my heart forever missing.    What I was recovering from was this 'spiritual journey' of sorts that left me, happy, sad, angry, mad, laughing, crying, weeding out horrible events in my life that date back years and most importantly, teaching me let go of what I can't change, as well as teaching me to discover myself, my true nature and the person I was born to be.  If I was a betting woman, I would say my mama was guiding me through the last year, and then Sissy too when she left this earth...

This is the third blog post I have written, as I get back to doing what I seem to do best...rambling.  I have tried to be profound, I have tried to be witty, I have forced the sarcasm, but to no avail, then I thought, just write what you know.  Sometimes I am profound, sometimes I am witty and much of the time I am sarcastic, but when I write, if it doesn't flow naturally out of my brain, then I know it is forced and for me there is no worse feeling when writing, than something that feels forced, so I deleted those posts and started over with this one. I tried to follow the format of last year's end of the year blog, when I broke up with 2014, after a pretty emotionally trying year.  I look back and realize, 2014 wasn't too blame.  It didn't cause loved ones to pass on, including my mom, it just happened to be the year that we could mark those passing's.  Despite what I know now, I did not, until this moment, look back on 2014 fondly. This is what I h...

Mahatma Gandhi once said, "Be the change you want to see in the world".  Perfect words in a not so perfect world.  On a daily basis many struggle to maintain a calm and peaceful demeanor.  Some people don't care how their actions affect others, but then they complain about the world around them.  This is life.  It's not that we don't care, it's that we don't stop to take time to stop and look around us.  My dad told me a great customer service story the other day when I was in San Diego visiting.  "Give'em the pickle" he said.  Well of course my less than perfect mind said, "what did dad just say to me?"  Then he explained.  A man was dining at a restaurant. After his check was closed out, he still had a hankering for a pickle, so he asked for one more.  The server said he would have to be charged for it.  Well of course this didn't sit well with the man, understandably, since he was just a patron of the restaurant,...

December 2nd. It's hard to believe the year is almost over and as I look back on it, I think wow, what a journey I have been on, from January until now, it seems like an eternity and yet, it seems like I blinked and here we are.  You have read about my gratitude, you have followed me through highs and lows, through my introduction to meditation and so on.  Today though I am going to write about something that I find to be the heart of this journey, trusting the process. In my humble opinion, going with the flow, seems as though it is a process in itself, as mentioned above.  It seems so easy and yet, there are times when you find yourself holding on to something so tight, that is slaps you and says, "hey, trust me, okay?"  When those moments happen you have to admit to yourself that you are not going with the flow, but indeed controlling a situation that would probably work itself out for the best if you just let it drift into the breeze of your thoughts and rid...

Well doesn't that just figure.  I spend twenty-nine games writing snippets of what I am thankful for and on the very last day I procrastinated so much, I forgot. Oops.  Fortunately I knew what I was thankful for.  Though I did try to stay in the moment, ie each day I blogged about gratitude from the day, I thought to myself yesterday morning how lucky I am to have something to be grateful for each day.  In fact, lots of things, even if sometimes they are the same thing every day.   How often we overlook the small things while we wish for the next day to come, but living in the moment. Feeling in the moment and just being in the moment, was eye opening.  Each day is a gift, so breathe life into each day.  If it is a rough day, take some breaths to center yourself and remind yourself that "this too shall pass".   Life isn't always a smooth ride, but when you find a wrinkle in the road, shoot it with botox (eek) and  keep going....

I am grateful for my ability to follow my own road and to not follow the major consensus, because it is "cool".  I have always walked to the beat of my own drum, my family inspiring my "uniqueness", since I was a little girl, but as I grew older, I began to hide who I truly am, a goofball, who only wants the best for those I know and don't know.   I am not perfect, or exceptional in any way, but I am opening up and learning to stand in the sunshine.   I am learning to say what I feel, popular opinion or not, and I am learning that this journey I have been on has taught me how to help heal those along my path, as they have healed me.  My soul is no different than anyone elses, and I have learned the patience that comes with that, since we all evolve at different times.   My mind, my heart, my soul, it wants to keep learning. It wants to find a way to learn and as I type these words, I realize they are just pouring out of me, probably from my heart that i...

Neighbors. I'm fortunate for awesome neighbors, from the couple across the sidewalk, to the neighbor I share a wall with, to my neighbor around the corner from the couple.  They are kind, they are friendly and most importantly, they are friends.   It's not often people hang out with their neighbors...I'm lucky I can. Just a few more days and I'll be writing about random things again, so hang in there.   I'm not a quitter, so I have to follow this through.  Until tomorrow....

Meditation.  The one thing on the journey that I have come to appreciate so much.  Even if for a moment, inhaling and exhaling can be so healing, so purifying.  There's a sense of freedom that you can feel and explore when clearing your mind.  I owe a debt of gratitude to this ancient practice.  Until tomorrow...mind your patience. It will make life easier. 

I am grateful for my family.  I am grateful for the car that got me to San Diego and back home, so I could spend Thanksgiving with my family. I have gratitude in my heart and I will do my best to keep it there.  Until tomorrow...appreciate ______. 

today i am going the e.e. cummings route and stticking with the lowercase.  i'm thankful for the full moon.  The illumination. the energy. its all around beauty ss it lights up the night sky.  My cousin told me she thouht her son was howling at the moon last night, to which i thought, well werewolves can be cool too, i suppose. long story short, since I am tired this evening and it's now the 26th, the moon holds so many meanings.  Space travel and moon landings.  metaphysical properties. busy emergency rooms from the overly energized, or just a perfect circle in the sky, glowing down on us and saying hello, look at how beautiful I am. Until tomorrow...go outside and bask in it's awesomeness.

My sincerest apologies, I don't really feel like blogging today. I don't think it is that I have nothing to write, I just don't have the passion for it at this moment and that is a tough pill for me to swallow, since I love to write and I killed it during lunch hour when I wrote an entire chapter (right!?).  So today, I am thankful for you, my reader, maybe I have more than one, and perhaps even people that don't know me read this.  Thank you for coming back to enjoy it, or to see if it ever gets better (haha), whatever the case may be, I appreciate it.  Everyone's time is worth a fortune, so for you to take time out of your day to read this blog, well, it makes me smile (big smile!). Until tomorrow...Please know that I have gratitude in my heart and my spirit for those who read my blog. <3 *hugs* XOXO

Dear Diary, Throughout my teenage years I had a tendency to give my parents grief...maybe even before those years.  However, now that I am an adult, I find that no matter how hard I resisted, my parent's loved me anyway.  Mom and I had it the roughest.  Dad once told me, with a chuckle, "one day you and your mother, will be very close and you will look back on these days and laugh."  Well, dad was right.  We may not have always looked back on those days fondly, but we did chuckle about them from time to time. I won't lie, I was the average teenager. the average rebel and the average offspring. I didn't do anything overly exciting with my teenage years like play sports, or be in the school play, though I did want to be, shyness overwhelmed me in that department, but I did become a writer then.  I lost myself in fantasy world's and action stories, where I was the hero of the story, instead of being the hero of my life, but that role was taken....

I  Am Just Grateful. I am sorry, I have nothing more than that today. Nothing I feel might be considered profound.  I am just grateful.  Until tomorrow....