Capricorn Tales

  Though I probably should have written this blog post yesterday, I decided to be a lazy bum all day, only leaving my house to go have dinner with my sister.  I know, I know, you probably think I was nursing a hangover, but on the contrary the only hangover I was nursing, was the one caused by 2015.  No, I am not angry at 2015.  I did not carry over the animosity of 2014 starting off so great and ending with a life changing event that left a piece of my heart forever missing.    What I was recovering from was this 'spiritual journey' of sorts that left me, happy, sad, angry, mad, laughing, crying, weeding out horrible events in my life that date back years and most importantly, teaching me let go of what I can't change, as well as teaching me to discover myself, my true nature and the person I was born to be.  If I was a betting woman, I would say my mama was guiding me through the last year, and then Sissy too when she left this earth...

This is the third blog post I have written, as I get back to doing what I seem to do best...rambling.  I have tried to be profound, I have tried to be witty, I have forced the sarcasm, but to no avail, then I thought, just write what you know.  Sometimes I am profound, sometimes I am witty and much of the time I am sarcastic, but when I write, if it doesn't flow naturally out of my brain, then I know it is forced and for me there is no worse feeling when writing, than something that feels forced, so I deleted those posts and started over with this one. I tried to follow the format of last year's end of the year blog, when I broke up with 2014, after a pretty emotionally trying year.  I look back and realize, 2014 wasn't too blame.  It didn't cause loved ones to pass on, including my mom, it just happened to be the year that we could mark those passing's.  Despite what I know now, I did not, until this moment, look back on 2014 fondly. This is what I h...

Mahatma Gandhi once said, "Be the change you want to see in the world".  Perfect words in a not so perfect world.  On a daily basis many struggle to maintain a calm and peaceful demeanor.  Some people don't care how their actions affect others, but then they complain about the world around them.  This is life.  It's not that we don't care, it's that we don't stop to take time to stop and look around us.  My dad told me a great customer service story the other day when I was in San Diego visiting.  "Give'em the pickle" he said.  Well of course my less than perfect mind said, "what did dad just say to me?"  Then he explained.  A man was dining at a restaurant. After his check was closed out, he still had a hankering for a pickle, so he asked for one more.  The server said he would have to be charged for it.  Well of course this didn't sit well with the man, understandably, since he was just a patron of the restaurant,...

December 2nd. It's hard to believe the year is almost over and as I look back on it, I think wow, what a journey I have been on, from January until now, it seems like an eternity and yet, it seems like I blinked and here we are.  You have read about my gratitude, you have followed me through highs and lows, through my introduction to meditation and so on.  Today though I am going to write about something that I find to be the heart of this journey, trusting the process. In my humble opinion, going with the flow, seems as though it is a process in itself, as mentioned above.  It seems so easy and yet, there are times when you find yourself holding on to something so tight, that is slaps you and says, "hey, trust me, okay?"  When those moments happen you have to admit to yourself that you are not going with the flow, but indeed controlling a situation that would probably work itself out for the best if you just let it drift into the breeze of your thoughts and rid...

Well doesn't that just figure.  I spend twenty-nine games writing snippets of what I am thankful for and on the very last day I procrastinated so much, I forgot. Oops.  Fortunately I knew what I was thankful for.  Though I did try to stay in the moment, ie each day I blogged about gratitude from the day, I thought to myself yesterday morning how lucky I am to have something to be grateful for each day.  In fact, lots of things, even if sometimes they are the same thing every day.   How often we overlook the small things while we wish for the next day to come, but living in the moment. Feeling in the moment and just being in the moment, was eye opening.  Each day is a gift, so breathe life into each day.  If it is a rough day, take some breaths to center yourself and remind yourself that "this too shall pass".   Life isn't always a smooth ride, but when you find a wrinkle in the road, shoot it with botox (eek) and  keep going....

I am grateful for my ability to follow my own road and to not follow the major consensus, because it is "cool".  I have always walked to the beat of my own drum, my family inspiring my "uniqueness", since I was a little girl, but as I grew older, I began to hide who I truly am, a goofball, who only wants the best for those I know and don't know.   I am not perfect, or exceptional in any way, but I am opening up and learning to stand in the sunshine.   I am learning to say what I feel, popular opinion or not, and I am learning that this journey I have been on has taught me how to help heal those along my path, as they have healed me.  My soul is no different than anyone elses, and I have learned the patience that comes with that, since we all evolve at different times.   My mind, my heart, my soul, it wants to keep learning. It wants to find a way to learn and as I type these words, I realize they are just pouring out of me, probably from my heart that i...

Neighbors. I'm fortunate for awesome neighbors, from the couple across the sidewalk, to the neighbor I share a wall with, to my neighbor around the corner from the couple.  They are kind, they are friendly and most importantly, they are friends.   It's not often people hang out with their neighbors...I'm lucky I can. Just a few more days and I'll be writing about random things again, so hang in there.   I'm not a quitter, so I have to follow this through.  Until tomorrow....