Over the last six months I have been learning to release control of everything, and trying to go with the flow...fly by the seat of my pants...that being said, I think it is fair to say that a small amount of "planning ahead" never hurts and shouldn't be considered controlling.
So this made me laugh.out.loud. For real. Before I head off to bed, I try to set up the meditation for the next morning, so I can just put on my headphones and get right to it, before I fall back asleep. Today's lesson, check out the lesson beforehand, before you close your phone. Remember how I shared yesterday that my mind is always going, going and going? How focus for me is like trying to get a small dog to not be so excitable? Yeah, today's lesson...wait for it....'The body scan. Meditation for insomnia, to help you fall asleep.' Excellent. Oh and it works. Yes, I set my third alarm and then did the exercise to see how it would go, and if it would help. Of course, this would have been more helpful at midnight last night while I was trying to go to sleep. Doh *facepalm*
I also mentioned yesterday that the breathing techniques from day one helped, so I think coupled with today's exercise, which will get a proper do-over tonight, I might actually fall asleep before the birds outside, who apparently live on East Coast time, start to chirp.
To be honest, my insomnia is not a nightly thing, but it does happen often and in waves to the point that when the weekend comes, I am in recovery mode trying to catch up on sleep, which honestly, I don't really think anyone can do. If you miss it, you miss it. Just try again tomorrow. Something along those lines, or perhaps that is just me. Who knows, I'm not an expert, I am just in "reviewer" mode.
I can also tell you, with a proud smile, that the self-compassion exercise worked very well. I mentioned it to my sister, who is also my roommate. Well when I went home last night I told her all about what I did at lunch, how it made me feel and then I read her my blog. She felt I used the word 'Fail' too much, and had it been last week, I probably would have agreed.
I told her that I didn't think I used it too much, because it didn't mean anything to me. Not to say it isn't an important word, but remember what I said, "you can look at fail as a four letter word, or a catalyst to better things." In our society these days, we condition ourselves to avoid anything that might be remotely negative, which isn't bad, but we also sugar coat situations that can't be sugarcoated. If I didn't think my book was a "major fail", I wouldn't have gone back and found mistakes, I would have put it out to the world and allowed it to be scrutinized for either lack of content, or worse, grammar and punctuation, which admittedly I am horrible at. Not a good thing when you want to be a writer and yes, I have taken classes. (scary, yeah?).
I continued on to tell her that it doesn't have to be that other four letter word. That we can look at it in a positive, even if it truly is a negative word, because that is just it. There are so many words that we can use that we believe are positive, but can be looked upon negatively. In this case, people see "fail" and it is a tragedy, instead of a stepping stone to better things.
So, now that I have gone way off target...I will end this here, but think about what I have said.
Until tomorrow...let us learn from our mistakes and reach higher heights. <3
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