Well, I am sure Bob Dylan meant something completely different when he sang those lyrics, but from day one until yesterday, I really found that my times, well they were a changin'. That is what I am going to focus mainly on during this blog, as well as giving my opinion on the meditation challenge.
I went back through the thirty days and I picked my favorites. Including the staying in the moment meditation. It was short, but for me, it is a way to re-find my balance and center myself. For instance, if you are having one of those days when you just need step away and breathe, do it literally. For those moments when you are feeling "less than", do the love meditation, or the self-confidence meditation. There are so many and I am grateful for the J Bittersweet meditation challenge. In some cases I edited, for lack of a better word, the way the meditations were done, as I found so many variations of the same thing. So, if there is something you like, stick to the basics, but make it your own and make it work for you.
Now, on to my concerns about the thirty day meditation challenge. Yes, I enjoyed it, but I found that things that affected my past, that I thought I had shed a long time ago, apparently I didn't. I carried what I have come to call, residual pain or anger. In other words, your heart may be whole, or even your spirit, but picture it with a dark outline. This is residual pain or anger and it hovers like a thin veil or wall.
Be careful when doing so many different meditations all at once. As we all know, we're unique individuals built differently, but many of us react the same way to things, as that is just human nature. In my case, I was told in confidence by a good friend, that the way I had been acting was a little out of character for me. Well it was and we traced it back to week two of the meditations. I was dealing with deep seeded emotions that I hadn't thought about in years, going all the way back to my childhood when I was bullied for so long, being picked on because other girls didn't think I was pretty. I felt awkward and when really young, post heart surgery, I had a bone that kind of stuck up from my chest. It receded as I got taller, but the mean words had already been said. I promise this is no excuse, but these things shape us to be who we are. We can become the most compassionate of people, or the most angry of people, but it just adds to that sharpie-dark outline of your most precious heart and soul.
That being said, when you are done meditating, or now, if you are finished. Go back through the meditations and write down in a journal how you felt about these things. A piece of paper will do too. Just get it out of your system and in essence, let it go. Release it and don't hold on to it anymore. It might have hurt you then, but it is not who you are now and it does not serve your life in a positive way. Meditation can help you find your balance if you choose this route.
When you take a moment to breathe and exhale, you are basically doing a basic meditation. You are clearing your mind and allowing peace and calm to wash over you. Yes, it really is that simple. Other meditations, more in-depth, will help you clear away the life debris, so you can see a little more clearly with your eyes, your heart, your mind and your soul. No judgments, no pre-misconceptions...it just allows you to see the world in a new way.
As I have stated many times, these are just my opinions, but also my experience with the last 30 days. I am grateful for it, because I feel like my spirit went through the car wash, having purchased the most expensive wash, with waxing and detailing. The bristles of the brush might have hurt, the wax might have been too hot, but in the end, you come out shining. It might not happen in thirty days, it might happen faster, it might take a little longer, but you will find, if you truly allow yourself to experience these meditations, that you are becoming a person who is more balanced and centered. If you are someone who has no issues with confidence, or self-love, then perhaps it is just a good way to release any stresses you might find you picked up throughout the day.
As I mentioned yesterday, for the last week I have been tweeting Daily Mantra's. Going forward I am also going to blog about them. It will help me stick to my writing, as well as share my own experiences with each mantra I share. I will also write about how I use my own tools and those I have learned to handle each situation as it comes. I am not a professional, but I do try to relate my experiences and how I managed them to others. I try to give it a more personal feel, so people can relate and know they are on this journey with someone. We may not have the same experiences, but we might have the same reactions or feelings.
I promise you, I am straight forward and I will not bullshit you. Yes, I might have a potty mouth from time to time, but I make no excuses for myself or the way I approach things. It has taken me years to get to this point and I want to help whoever I can, so it doesn't take that person just as long. We all have our journey's, but doesn't it feel better when you know you're not walking alone?
Until tomorrow....remind yourself that everyday you wake up is a good day, because every morning is a new opportunity. Be grateful every morning, noon and night before you go to bed.
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