Capricorn Tales

     Dear two thousand and fourteen,      I had hoped that we would be friends, I had hopes that you would see me through to better times in my life, like, perhaps, my finally throwing caution to the wind and submitting one of many books I have written or started, but never finish, because now I realize I have a severe fear of failure.  Yes, yes, I know, I know, many people have that fear of failure.  These are the bits of wisdom I had hoped to gain from you when we met on January 1st.  It was supposed to be twelve months of fun, adventure and the success in knowing I had embarked on one of two life long dreams, instead, you tricked me.  I really just want to say screw you and the grim reaper you rode in on.  You wooed me and you made promises to me that you never intended to keep.  This is why we need to break up and why I will hopefully be seeking comfort in your friend two thousand and fifteen.   ...

The following was copied from the PanCan.Org, 2015 World Pancreatic Cancer Day site....I would say the numbers are shocking, but there isn't enough focus on finding a cure for a cancer that has devastated so many lives...how can one be shocked? "Pancreatic cancer is the fifth biggest cancer killer in the UK and the seventh in the world, yet so many people know nothing about it. But they can be forgiven for that because unfortunately, it barely gets attention. This cancer is chronically underfunded and has languished in the ‘too-hard-to-deal-with’ category for far too long . This is reflected in the dire survival rates, which haven’t improved for more than 40 years. At the moment, over 80 per cent of pancreatic cancer ... patients are diagnosed too late. Typically, patients with terminal pancreatic cancer die between four to six months after diagnosis. We want to increase awareness and understanding about the illness among the public, medical community and g...

I am posting a copy of my eulogy per my cousin's request.  The picture of the pink post-it below accompanied by eulogy and has attached to it the last "Selfie" we took as a family at Disneyland.  This would be our last trip there together.    Love strongly. Live with gratitude. Never go to bed angry with anyone.  Remember Love.              ‘Seasons of Love’ is the one song that really helped me through the last few months.   It spoke to me more than other songs usually do.   I have always liked the song, but it wasn’t until my mom was diagnosed with cancer that I truly understood it.   In fact, the day she told me she was stopping all treatment I Just happened to see this quote, “When you’re happy, you enjoy the music.   When you’re sad, you understand the lyrics”.   There are no truer words than those and for me, the song became an unofficial anthe...

People keep asking me, "how are you?", or they keep saying, "I can't believe how strong you are", or "how well you are holding up", but the truth is, I feel like a mess inside.  I'm no different than anyone else though. I hurt, I feel pain, I cry. I mourn, but I suffered through depression for twenty years, many of them without medication and I learned that by suppressing my feelings, they just fester and burst out like a bottle of Coke that's been shaken and the cap left on.  I'm not strong, I just have a good, tight fitting mask, that comes off every night when I crawl into bed and goes on every morning before I step out of my room. Actually I take that back. I do feel like I have gained a little bit of something I never had before, my Mama's strength and the I'm-not-going-to-take-your-sh*t-attitude.  Yeah, she wasn't big on swearing, hence the *.  I guess it is a little shout out to her, since I am sure that even though I ...

I know, I know, I am well overdo, as it is already Tuesday, but at least I came back to post and didn't just leave you hanging like so many years in the past.  Saturday as expected, was epic, but not quite in the way I had hoped, at least for me.  In previous years, I had many recordable "squee" moments, but this year I truly only had about two notable ones.  The WB panel opened the morning with an even more impressive side screen that reached almost all the way to the back of Hall H.  Yes, that's right, they went REALLY big this time! It was awesome!  Of course they opened with a teeny clip of Batman v. Superman, a very teeny clip.  It begins with Batman standing at the Bat Signal in the rain, his eyes glowing, as he stares up (he kind of looked like lego batman Lol).  He turns the Bat Signal on, but his suit gives nothing away, since you can't see his eyes.  I am not sure if this Batman was CGI'd or not, because honestly, it looked a litt...

Well today was another rather low key day. After a mild mishap in the morning, very little was accomplished, but to flash forward, that could be a blessing in disguise, because I am hoping tomorrow is going to be another epic Saturday in the big hall.  Anyway, coming back to Friday, We started out the morning in Ballroom 20 for: Inside The Big Bang Theory's Writer's Room.  I skipped the 'How to Write an action scene' panel for this, but it was worth it, because these writers are hilarious.  I think they also found "the voice behind the voice" of Sheldon Cooper, as Moderator Craig Ferguson put it, in Eric Kaplan.  His somewhat matter of fact and droll responses were not only classic, but perfect.  The panel even started out with a reworked version of Howard's love song to Bernadette, sung by some people you just might recognize, from previous episodes, "Ramona" and "Lucy". The panel continued on with the usual Q&A with Craig...

Another day is in the books and to be honest it was kind of a hap-hazard day.  I don't feel very prepared for this Comic Con, in fact the whole My-life-feels-turned-upside-down thing, makes life kind of interesting.  It is what it is and I am not the only one who goes through this, so you just kind of grin and bear it and move on.  That being said and going back to the original thought, I feel unprepared, but it's okay, because I am semi-flying by the seat of my pants.  I have searched the Exhibit floor for things people have asked for, oddly to no avail, but I have also passed some pretty cool things, which will be posted later on my Facebook page when I get a chance to download the pics from my SLR.  For now I am dependent on what my Iphone can provide. I missed my first panel, so I took the time to catch up with a friend of mine, who met us in the Sails Pavilion, which is always a fun place to find costumed people.  We "ran" into Loki and Thor, thou...

We arrived in San Diego to find that we had received a room with a King bed, instead of two Queens, but fortunately our friend David switched rooms with us so non-crisis averted and Sis Laura and I each have our own bed. Whew.  Funny thing though, the remote didn't work right off the bat and I think the potty is leaking, but it's a little things that can be fixed in a jiffy! yay!  What I didn't notice until much much later was that I have a nice little sunroof suntan...ie, I look like a patchwork tan and most of my outfits for the weekend are comfy, humidity fighting, strapless dresses. LOL!  Oh My, It really can't be easy can it?  Of course, this little souvenir made up for it....The Batkey (Hotel room key, hehe!). So let's get to the meat of this shall we?  I didn't get a chance to check out the exhibit hall, since Sis Laura was aching something fierce towards the late evening, but I can say that it was nice to receive an invite by none of other tha...

Well, it seems almost fitting that Preview Night for Comic Con falls on the same day as Batman Day...the 75th Anniversary of the Caped Crusader, Dark Knight...etc. etc.  I am excited, because the cover, in my humble opinion, is frame worthy and will find it's way behind glass, once I transport it, safely and soundly, home.   As in the past, I have decided to work a half day, since the last time I took an entire day off, I wasn't really sure what to do with myself, but as I wait for the time to pass, I find myself feeling less and less inclined to work and more and more inclined to take the day off next year (wishful thinking that I will be a badge holder once again next year in 2015.  Just putting it out there.).  I feel as if twiddling my thumbs is pointless, though I am mildly entertained as coworkers keep sneaking peeks at me, as the word begins to spread around the office that "Shelly has blue hair".  Okay, so now you can see it, though my hair is ...

Every year I say I will be better at blogging and every year I do well at it for about two days and then I suck major ass at it.  Believe it or not, I really do finish things in life, it's just a matter of finding time to do them, but this I really do want to keep up with.  I am making no promises about Comic Con though, because as you know, by day three (Saturday), my mind feels like is going in ten directions.   I suppose you could look at it this way...my brain is at a 24 hour buffet of geek input, binging on everything it possibly can, but since my brain seems to hold on to everything, it also has a tendency to go into shutdown mode once said brain reaches the quiet comfort of a room not filled with hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of people,  as if someone has flipped a switch.     When you stand in a hotel elevator made for 5 people and there are 10 of you in it and it doesn't feel crow...

I feel as if life keeps derailing me, but when I stop and think about it, it is only me doing that terrible terrible damage to myself, so I am going to make it a point to be better at blogging. I used to think no one reads this, but who cares, because I do and I have a lot to say, even if it only means something to me. That said, it is time, so stay tuned, because this week is Comic Con!!!