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Day 16 of 30 days of gratitude. Finding a thank you.

I'll be honest, today has been one of those days that makes finding something to be thankful for hard. Admittedly I haven't been in the best of moods today, so tonight I am just kind of winging this as I type, because I know that the more I write, the better the odds are of me finding something to be thankful for.

Have you ever had one of those days that didn't seem so bad, but then it all seemed to fall apart in a split second and you're not sure why or how?  That was today.  I have recently had butterflies and every time I have felt these particular butterflies, something in my life had changed.  Lately it has been for the good, but as someone who is increasingly becoming less resistant to change, and learning to step out of my box, these feelings can be subconsciously overwhelming as I continue to navigate through this journey.

That said perhaps what I am grateful for is my new found ability to adapt to these changes, big or subtle.  Sometimes you have to have enough faith and trust to let go of the anchor, that is keeping your feet firmly planted go the ground, and learn to float a bit.  Learn to experience the unknown and basically learn to break out of the rut and live.  So yes, eureka (!!), that is it.  I am grateful for adaptability.  It hasn't happened overnight for me, but now this overwhelming pack of butterflies in my stomach, suddenly seem to be settling in for some coffee, or tea, depending on my whim (and apparently their's) and waiting for me to see what happens next.  Fingers crossed it is really good. 

Until tomorrow...even when it is hard, find the gratitude in anything you can, because it will help settle your mind and keep you in a good place. 
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