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All over the place....Day 23, 30 day writing challenge

 
Have you ever had a day that has left you wanting to bang your head against the wall?  Well, today seems to be my day.  Sometimes I feel like I am stepping outside of my body and having conversations with people that just don't seem to listen, or they don't want to hear what you have to say, because the fear of the unknown is too great for them. So why ask what I think? Because I am a good peep and friend to those I care about. Not tooting my own horn, those are words from my peeps. Apparently I have two good ears attached to my head...though my brain I worry about sometimes. haha!
 
Back on target....What does any one of us have to lose?  Take a chance, take a leap of faith.  Step outside of your comfort zone, because who knows what might await you in those undiscovered territories that sit nestled in the shadow regions?  A shadow region just waiting for you to bring sunshine to it. 
 
I love people. I often express hatred on the freeway, or kick people off my planet during those weak moments when I forget that we're all human, BUT truth be told, I like people. I like to hear what they have to say, I like to have discussions and I like to guide them through things if they ask me for help.  What is hard is when you reassure people and they still don't listen.  Now I know what my mentors H&G have gone through. They tell me, tell me, tell me, but I rarely, if ever, listen and then I venture down one path, just to circle around, after time wasted, to go down the right one, with my tail between my legs.
 
Wouldn't life just be easier if we listened to the advice that people gave us?  I would like to say the unbeaten path is more fun...like an off-roading experience, but the difference between unbeaten and off-roading is that OR is usually more fun.  The beaten path is beaten for a reason, because people made those mistakes and they're trying to guide you down that way.  Now, don't get me wrong, unbeaten paths in many situations are excellent, but if you're asking for advice, then you're asking for the road taken, as opposed to not taken, because you're tired of the same shit on a different day. You're also probably tired of toiling around in places where you're not happy and hoping for something better, even though you're afraid of crossing that line.
 
Life isn't easy for anyone and I have tread down many an unbeaten path of my own, because I wouldn't listen.   No one can tell you what path to take, you have to ultimately decide that for yourself, but don't you think you deserve the best?  You should, because you do.   
 
I apologize for my all over the board rant, but hey, that's what some blogs are for right?
 
Until tomorrow...drive the paved road, until you know what your head and heart want.

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