Capricorn Tales

The last few days have been anything, but normal for me.  I have been running in circles trying to make my life happen, without giving any thought to what I was doing to myself.  How would I end up, would I truly be happy, would I even care?  I was doing it, because I thought the end result was what I wanted, but truly, is it?  Yes.  In the long run, yes, but I had to overcome the first obstacle...me. I know the quest seems vague and I am sorry, but it will have to remain that way.  The journey however, not so much.  Have you ever wanted something so much in your life that you could feel it? You could smell it?  You could almost breathe it?  That's how I have been.  I have dreamt it.  I have felt it and I have touched it.  At this point you probably think I am a whackadoodle and off my rocker, but if you know me, you realize that I am not (shoosh my fellow sassypants pals. lol).  As of late, I have tried to live...

         HOLY CRIPES OF ALL THAT MISERY.  I just re-read my last few posts and frankly I was beginning to depress myself.  Oddly enough, I am writing this on the eve of my mom's 6 month anniversary, yet, despite my tears, I have been adjusting quite well.  Yes, I miss her, every day. It's a pain that won't go away, but I know I will heal over time.  To quote the amazing Lord Byron, "What deep wounds ever closed without a scar?"  How true.  The old adage stands tall though, time does heal wounds and slowly mine are healing.  I won't lie, I know I can't call her, I know she isn't there to ask advice and I know I can't go to her for a hug.  What pains my heart is that I feel like I am on the edge of turning the corner in my life and she won't be there to experience every great moment that is about to happen and yet on the other hand, I feel like she is the one pushing me in those ...